That Dark Silhouette

It feels like eons of ages ago,when I ventured out to meet my doom on an ill fated night.How hard I try,I can't forget that dreadful face of her on that stormy night,it still gives me goosebumps whenever I think of that night.it was one night where my worst dream came alive & strangled me with my own hands. It was the night of December 31st back in 2009 or trans2010,the world was celebrating madly reckoning in the new year & I was stuck in a small hilly village in Kerala. I was working with a leading plantation company as an assistant manager & during the December-January schedule I was assigned to personally go & supervise the factory installation at that station,it was a place called Vandiperiyar adjacent to Kerala-Tamilnadu border,I was used to the hilly terrains of Kerala & my work always took me to strange locales & mind you,not every place in Kerala is tranquil or breathtaking as they say. The place was surrounded by hills,it was damp,humid & at 9000 feet was nothing short of a hellhole,I was provided a British era bungalow atop a hill again,so I had to descend down from my living quarters to my workplace,from uphill to downhill. The workers were disciplined,hardworking & obedient but these were somewhat orthodox if put correctly,they didn't like outsiders. I was more of a wandering outsider to them,they wouldn't listen to me directly,the orders had to be conveyed to them by their own people in Malyali,I had a lifesaver in the form of Mr Stanley Gonzales,who was my assistant & was the head supervisor. He would address the people on my behalf,his English was somewhat proficient & he was very helpful,elder to me but was very much a person who obeyed seniors at work. 

One day I took a stroll in the plantations by myself,wearing my khakis & half pants,signature clothing of a plantation person. It was drizzling a bit but 2 years in these hilly terrains have endured me with these instances,the plantation estate was 700 acres sprawled across 4 adjacent hills & plains,it contained the living quarters for the managers,supervisors,technicians & the homes of the local people & the workers,there were churches,hospitals,schools,shops & small hotels in the estate,the company did a lot for the people under the CSR activities. While I was strolling down the rocky roads,I passed many people,workers,passerby locals,school going children;the workers would look up & salute me but it was more of an obligation than an gesture,I would be greeted with steely cold stares & raised hands than warm salutes. There was this old abandoned church at the end of this wallardie estate of the plantations,where due to some strange reason no people went,it was an old church,apparently british era by its looks,it was burnt to the foundation but I could make out the architecture,that used high tower & used granite instead of limestone,the cross was half bent,charred by the burning but it looked divine high over the cathedral,the mural paintings seen through broken walls,nearby burnt stones & glass were scattered nearby. It was kind of Gothic yet beautiful to look at in the faint twilight. Sunlight was streaming across a the charred broken granite walls as it was setting down over the Wallardie hills.

 I was amazed at the eerie silence of the place & suddenly a flash of lightning blazed in the sky & in that moment I saw a woman,a beautiful woman,she was British or Irish may be,dressed in an red gown,she was in her early thirties & was standing near the wooden church gate with her eyes closed & arms crossed,as if she was waiting for someone,then as the lightning went out,she was not there, I was dumbfounded,then thunder roared to life & a sudden heavy pour came down, I was too shocked to react but then another lightning lit up the sky & I saw her again & I felt like I was going crazy,this time,she was looking at me,arms open,a heartbreaking smile on her face,I was looking at her like a small child & the lightning felt like forever & then I looked in her eyes,the eyes flickered strangely,I was in complete denial with what i saw but when I looked into her eyes,they were hollow sockets,there were no eyes in them,I never believed in things such as Supernatural or Paranormal but in that moment I felt like everything I knew was an illusion or what I was seeing was just a crazed paranoia of some sort but then the lightning faded & thunder rumbled heavily.

I was completely drenched but I didn't know what to do & then I made the stupidest mistake of my life,I walked inside the church to save myself from the lashing of the downpour. The rain was coming down torrentially now,I tried to shove open the heavy wooden door but it didn't budge & then another lightning & the door flew open & I felt a jolt,the next thing I knew I was dragged across the cold damp church floor by some invisible force,it was too sudden & then there was darkness,the next lightning flickered & I was thrown across the church like a paper plane,it was  so forceful & so fast,I couldn't see anything but a flash of red flickering throughout the burnt church building. Then something odd happened,I was dropped on the hard floor with a thud & the lightning died down & thunder rumbled about. I was frozen with shock with what was going on & then suddenly the some kind of form took shape in front of me,it flickered constantly but when it formed itself from its dark silhouette,I saw the woman who stared at me through those hollow sockets of eyes at the church door,the next moment,whoosh,she was sitting in front of me,I was in a trance,watching her with awe & fear,then she stared at me again only this time it hurt like hell.

The next moment,I felt someone strangling me,only it were my own hands which were strangling the very life from my own body,I struggled violently kicking & jabbing away at my own body but the strength in me was nothing compared to the strength that acted against me,I was leviated from the ground,suspended precariously over the mural paintings of the ceiling & then I was jolted angrily, in that splitsecond I saw something flashy other than the lightning,the half broken cross of the church was glowing like a bright bulb in the darkness & I suddenly had a plan,which would either save me or damn me forever,I was leviated about 30 feet above & I tried pusshing towards the cross in that strangled position, I was slowly losing my consciousness but i tried hard & just I was about to touch the cross may be she knew what I was going for,I was swayed from side to side,my hands freed & I was thrashed about midair & when I was almost getting plumetted to the ground, I kicked the air & tried floating towards the cross & got hold of it. The very next moment a lightning struck the cross & I burst,the feeling was of bursting,Millions of volts jolted down the very flesh of mine & everything around me subdued to the impact,I saw a ring of fire around me & the spirit of the woman inside the ring,she was smiling at me & for some strange reason I smiled back at her,then she exploded into a burst of flames,so did I & everything else & the next thing I knew was thunder rumbling & I plummeted down to the floor.

I found myself on the hospital bed,people all around me,looking astonished & concerned at the same time,saw Stanley talking to the doctor & then when he looked at me,he stared at me & ran towards me & started chanting some verse from Bible,when stuttering I asked him about what happened & what was the reason of it,he narrated the incident in his earthy,raspy voice,'It was the year 1930,when Britishers took interest in the plantation estate & posted a young officer,a lieutenant to take charge of the area,the lieutenant was brave & kind,he was newly married & had a beautiful wife,they had a lovely life but the lack of a child made them suffer silently,it made her husband more menacing & cruel to the people & she became an alcoholic. One day the husband was angry on people for some work that wasn't completed in time & he beat the worker black & blue with his whip,making the local people more livid & enraged,a day after the worker succumbed to his injuries. It was the last of his tyranny as the people were mad with rage & attacked his bungalow with spears & torched his bungalow,the officer managed to send his wife to the nearby church by convincing her but stayed back to ask for forgiveness from people but he was killed mercilessly & while she waited for him all night with fear,a heavy rain broke out & a lightning struck the church & the church blazed with her inside,the rain muffled her bloodcurdling screams & the innocent woman was burnt alive. The church was abandoned since then,the people loved their Madam as she was kind & nice to them but her wandering spirit didn't take her husband's death lightly & she started haunting the place & whoever strayed to the church during rains was killed or found a lunatic. The infamous lore was it that she appeared during lightning & roamed the church & any unfortunate passerby was not forgiven & the place was  haunted since. People didn't go over there & a in a strange way no mishaps occurred.

For some strange reason I took a stroll down & being new to the place,I ventured towards the church that fateful night,I only knew what happened & the rest as I heard,the church was destroyed by a massive lightning stroke & I was found unconscious at the rubble without a mark on me,strangely the people thought I was some guardian angel for them & my stay of 2 months became ever pleasant,the only thing today that haunts me are her eyes, I never forgot them. 

Insomniac

In night I can’t sleep, in morning I can’t wake up, it is just like a thorn that’s half stuck in my skin, If I try getting it out, it hurts & it stays & hurts, pain has become a companion, this lack of sleep is affecting my every action, is it just a fluke or I am slowly becoming a new breed of Insomniacs.

I have seen people dozing off in public transport, people falling asleep in bus stops, railway stations & terminals but I of all people can’t have a few moments of sleep in my own bed. Is it something with be being not tired of whatever I do, the physical tiredness is there but what lacks depth is the tiredness in my sub conscious, it’s just like pangs of guilt, a twinge of my pain, a nudging inside that cranium seeking revenge for using that gray matter like a slave. I try everywhere possible but it is a disaster. 

Sometimes I turn to my cold marble of a floor to seek some solace from this wrath but the ice cold floor just aches my back & increases my distaste for it, someone told me bright bed sheets doesn't help in sleeping so dear wifey went ahead & bought some dark sheets to help me sleep but the sheets were as black as her heart as the charred figments of my relationship with my wife, she tries to sleep me off but she wants a good fucking session before that & while I marvel at her beautiful body as we both thrust down to alleys of lust & love, the pain strikes again, I come earlier than I did, I am more distracted than the street dog & I can’t love my wonderful yet bitchy wife like I used to.This insomnia has ruined my sex drive too. She says heavy meals will help, so I gulp down meat & carts of other meat, she feeds me like an animal in a slaughterhouse but all I do all night is run twice to the toilet & feel like a bloated fish, I workout like crazy hoping it makes me tired, it doesn't instead it bulges me out, of late I am looking more like a monster, my eyes have become sockets, when I look in the mirror I see crow’s feet dangling down them, they have turned blotchy.My eyes look at someone they try to recognize,the faint resemblances that echo deep in emotions trying to surge out,my once handsome face looks like a bombarded Buddha statue of Kandahar,like it has been tortured to make it not the way it was but to make it the way I wanted it to be.

Pain & frustration have became my bosom buddies but for all I know they try to carve their figurines on my entity. I become irritated easily,my short temperedness is increasingly getting shorter.My life’s been jumbled like a Cross word puzzle & the more I fiddle with it,the more complicated it becomes,I shout sometimes out of no necessity, this mediocre society has become more barbarian or so it seems, I've always loved barbarism,so true to our nature. I am as jaded & withered as a Igneous rock but I don't possess the strength or resilience it does. I lay on my bed,I close my eyes but I hear everything,its never distorted nor blurred,my eyes may be closed but they see everything,its like acid being poured down through the eye lids, I hear every whoosh of air & every shush of the fucking neighborhood, I am losing my grip on humanity, I try stabbing the pillow but it stands like a Minotaur hissing at me,its psychotic,all night I try curling up to the wife, bed sheets & the pillows but all they do is looking pitifully at me like I am an inmate at some asylum.Its bizarre,chaotic in the dead of the night,in the bitter silence I wake & howl like a Mad Wolf in the woods.12am,1am,2am,3am,4am & sometimes & I don't know when it comes I kind of go to sleep but these few hours I see the myriad of disparity among the vague & vibrant,reality kind of blurs away & I daydream in night in those few hours.

Smoking seems kind of solution to pass the time,so does alcohol.I stand at the balcony & drag on the smoke,it fills up my lungs & burns down my alveoli & makes me content with self destruction,sometimes self destruction seems like such a sweet gulp down the throat & it is indeed.Alcohol runs through my veins destroying my liver & my blood,after a few sips it feels like drinking my own blood but I let that feeling pass,not a vampire,not the least bit. Before the cruel bitch comes to me & closes my eyes, I see all kinds of things, things I want to see, things I don't & things I never imagined. I see myself as a tyrant, as a hero, as an oppressed soul & as a wanderer, I become nomadic & a cannibal, i go to the end of the world & come back in bits, flesh tethered to bone in worst possible way, like chewed by some animal with tooth & tongue with thorns,it is anarchy in paradise,like a needle being inserted into the eyelids in your consciousness,you feel it,the surge,the singe & the pain.In these mad moments of otherworldly suffering,my eyelids actually close & i don't know,I go to sleep may be,may be that's sleep or may be its insomnia again fucking me again in my eye.I've enjoyed the insomnia like I never knew the sleep.What happens after i fall asleep, I don't know.

Do You ?

Movies & Their Magic

Movies,just the name brings so many memories flooding back & eons of them yet to come. Its amazing how movies had become an integral part of our lives,everything that happens with us is somehow related or gets related to movies in some or other manner.Really,come on who doesn't do that,tell me who haven't tried out the  Titanic pose with their girlfriend or friends,who haven't tried to deduct theories out of thin air like Sherlock Holmes,who never thought of being bitten by a radioactive spider or being blessed with super powers by accident,its all there,it just takes its time to sink in & when that happens,it does have a profound effect on that person.Who doesn't give a Jaadu ki jhappi to their friends in need,who doesn't sing yeh dosti hum nahin todenge on their bikes with friends,who doesn't mock the drunken speech of Anthony Gonsalves in front of the mirror or try to be Raj for a girl & who doesn't slam Rajnikanth jokes almost everyday,it all sprang from the movies.everyone is in some ways touched,mesmerized & influenced by movies.

In many ways movies are all that that we want to be,they are larger than life,they are flashy,they are gritty & they are our projection of ourselves to much extent.Tell me about it,when someone watches a Bond movie,all that comes to mind are the globetrotting,exotic locales,the chases,the fights,the bond girls,the villains & the suaveness of Bond. every ordinary guy would want to be like that,who wouldn't ? Every person that wears a suit or tuxedo wants to feel like Bond in someway,not that they complain,its not a complain,its a compliment.Who would have thought that a massive sinking ship of a story across Atlantic could set blaze to a billion hearts without Jack & Rose,two persons who are mere imaginary characters but it was the heart wrenching drama of the ill fated love story aboard the infamous ship that touched everyone & brought tears to eyes,there is an absolute charm in the movies that we can't defy of.


Movies have long been inspiring masts of the technology vessel,today's gadgets,technology & fleet of communications have drawn upon the endless innovations of movies.Sci-fi movies have long been contributing towards growing technologies,those bright LED panels in countless Sci-fi movies since the 70s are real nowadays,the glitzy headsets are a reality,most of the scientists give credit to the movies for inspiring their works.Most recently nanotechnology which is seen in most of the movies nowadays & in upcoming Iron man 3 is a reality now,who knows the day when the technology of Tony Stark may come to life in the near future.It isn't impossible,movies isn't all about entertainment or an excuse to pass time.

I remember the rush to drive faster after watching the Fast & Furious movies,everyone does, its just another of many more charms of the movies. Movies are just a gateaway for us to escape boredom & plunge into the world we always wanted to dive in.Who can forget the ambience of Pandora or the horror of Aliens,the tranquility of Superman's powers or the destructiveness of the disturbed teenagers of Chronicle.The imperfection is also shown in the movies,true stories of people,most often the shady details of gangsters & their lives,many people are also misguided by movies but the aim of these movies is to entertain not just to make people fall for stylized violence & flashy lifestyles.In another tone in movies on serial killings,the gory aftermaths of serial killers send shivers down the spine & remind us of the beautiful life we have & not to deviate away like those who went astray.we also learn a great deal of things from the movies,most people not believing in Love fall in love after watching movies,bullied people rise up & retaliate.Those who sleep start dreaming & if they watched Inception then dreaming within dreams is guaranteed.When we wear something,we try to dress up as a particular character,the suit/tuxedo guys go Bondesque,girls wanting to be divas after Disney princesses.

Today Indian cinema celebrates its 100 years,a glorious journey which started off with Dada Saheb Phalke's Raja Harischandra but of late there has been a mixed sleuth of movies,both brilliant & soggy,with an audience that watches Golmaal movies & a movie like Paan Singh Tomar without any bar,which is difficult to make out,but the sole aim is of entertainment,as Silk puts in the Dirty Picture,"films work for three reasons & three reasons only,Entertainment,Entertainment & Entertainment & I am Entertainment."Indian cinema has still got a long way to go where it can have a better segmented audience & make suitable genre movies for them.Not just divide on the silly basis of Single Screen & Multiplexes or Masses & Classes.




I have adored movies since i saw the first movie of my life,first movie because it was the first movie I saw from beginning to the end,the movie was Maverick filmmaker Steven Spielberg's Jurassic Park,I remember watching it in a theatre,throughout the movie i clutched my Father's hand in both fear & awe of the Dinosaurs & my cinematic journey started from then,I have lost count of the movies i have seen but i remember everyone one them,each have etched their mark in my mind & heart ever since.Even today i sheepishly answer,'watching movies' as a hobby of mine,a habit that stayed with me since I saw movies & the movie I last saw was The Avengers.Do I need to say more ?

Just You Just Me

She looks at me,'She just woke up from her slumber on my shoulder,may be its the turbulence of the plane,we were soaring the skies somewhere above Rajasthan,our plane left Jaipur Airport about a half n hour ago. We were flying back to Bhubaneswar,Home sweet home from a recent vacation in Rajasthan',the look was annoying,endearing,dazzling,amazing,loving,Oh, I can never actually decipher whats in those two eyes,sometimes they well with pearls,mostly because of me,never really like those even though they are happy tears,i just can't see her shedding them,those are mine only mine & they are to be confined in those eyes only.So she looks at me,winks,Oh boy that's just another of her very much lovable traits,whenever she winked I knew,she's in a mood of mischief,then she asks "Where are We ?"."Still in Rajasthan", I reply still lost in her eyes,they sparkle when I say something looking into her eyes.She moans softly as I keep looking at her like that,comes closer & kisses me,"ahem ahem",the strolling stewardess goes about but its just oblivious, I kiss her back gently.

I remember how we fell in love,I was a lost soul,a philandering wanderer,never saw the right girl actually could never see the right girl,I was dating her best friend,who was engaged with some other guy,it was just a casual relationship,Friend with a lot of benefits if you put it correctly,no emotional attachments,no hassles & tussles.We were in the same college,I found her Hot but never hit on her,she was feisty,classy but was a Tomboy to the hilt & believe me,you don't really know a tomboy until you meet one or get to know one.I was more like okay with bimbos,all looks & no brains.So I tread with caution & picked the easy ones.She never liked me,she scolded her friend whenever she saw us together,the scolding & coldness was meant for me actually but I took it in my pride stride.Then one day all hell broke loose,I got a call from her,she was straightforward about breaking the ice between us,I always knew this day was gonna come but I thought it would always be me not her who broke the ice.She was clear,enough of the awkward silence & the other innuendos,lets just be friends.We became friends,then good friends & I forgot the rest of the world,she developed on me like a habit,I just couldn't get enough of her.I don't remember how many times I tried to flirt with her but there was always a air of steeliness around her,she never let her guard down,then one day a chance encounter with fate led us both to a date.

It was an evening of winter,January 1st 2009,we set out on my bike & first she took me to a temple,I always thought of her as a punk,I never saw a religious side of her & she amazed me with that one gesture,I had been out a good number of girls on boring,blah blah filled dates at Cafes,hotels & malls but a temple.She took me inside,prayed,made me pray & then we went on a long ride to a nearby city,it was on the way when she poured her heart out to me,I wore just a tee & a jeans,she was clad perfectly in winter clothes,cold biting down my body,the whizzing air past my ears & out of the rush,I had just heard two bits,a bit about her ex & why she's the way she is.Then all of a sudden it hit me,I should be with her,so unabashedly open,pretty talkative when she felt like,an attitude to kill for & a smile of an angel,My Angel.I kept thinking,kept pondering,whenever I braked,she would tense,the tension was hanging all around,then I brewed up a storm in my mind,I will not let this one go,I won't let you go.

We came back just before the hostel gatekeeper could bark about,I parked nearby the gate but it was dark.My breath burning my nostrils,heartbeat a tandem jumped up,hands sweaty,the coldness kicking into my skin,she said she couldn't remember the last time she felt that happy & didn't know how to thank me & started walking.I was frozen,didn't think what to say & then out of the blue I made the most beautiful mistake of my life,I asked her to thank me,pat came the question,"How ?","You could give me a kiss", I blurted out,she stood shell shocked,a profound silence,an eerie silence just like the winter chill spread its dark silhouette around us,"I do not insist",I said apologetically almost.She smiled sheepishly but walked towards me nervously,I was breathless,amazed at her sheer beauty in the darkness,step by step,time slowed down when she walked towards me,I always thought she had a funny gait but that didn't matter anymore,she leaned over me while i was transfixed on my ride,her breath singeing my very skin,her lips came down on my left cheek & then she kissed me,just a sweet emblem of our very journey has started probably,then she said " I'll will never forget today."

Neither did I,the next two days passed just like any other day but we didn't talk much,I thought I just massacred my hope of being with this Tomboy all I received from her were a slew of messages that she's worried,confused,nervous,reluctant (falling for me may be).The third day,a perfect day,January 4th,I received a call from her,she said she wanted to tell me something,something that she couldn't contain anymore & if she tried to hold it anymore she'll despair for her whole life & then she said the words that were going to change my world forever,"I LOVE YOU".

"Dhana(as she fondly calls me,its your alias for Honey,Cutie,Baby whatever),what are you thinking?",she asks me pulling the chain of my train down the memory lane,I never complain because its her I am thinking about,she can do whatever she wanted,she could ask whatever she wanted to,I return from memory street & take a look at her,her sleepy eyes,a restless ocean churning in them,my girl,my woman,my love,I gush countless I love You's for her,take a breath of the thin air of the plane that's filled with fragrance of love for her & reply,"Uh nothing baby,Just thinking about us,JUST YOU JUST ME." Then I kissed her & mumbled,

"I Love You Jaffna Ray."

HELLO ANGER (YOU BASTARD)

Meet Anger,our colossal,frigging gigantic friend in deed, yeah yeah sometimes in need too.Anger is an in-disposable friend of almost everyone,it doesn't let you go so easily & anger never comes alone. Every time anger comes to scenario not only it brings the plethora of unwanted friends with it but also breeds a lot of bastards in the due process.Eventually some wise fellow tries to get rid of it,but the mother of all Society doesn't allow the bond of friendship between you & anger broken,Society the big mamma tends to heal back soured relations between you & anger to make life even more rancid.
What causes anger,is it Ego,Pride,Jealousy,Annoyance,Ignorance,Embarrassment,Fear,

Frustration,Loathing,Loneliness,depression or Lust or Love.The answer is listless,endless & bottomless,how much we try to find why we can't do away anger,it comes back in different packages,doing albeit the same destruction every time.

Anger is a suppressed emotion that lets out strong uncomfortable & emotional outbursts upon denial or unacceptable events.then what,those who have vented out anger know it pretty well,it causes pain,damn pain every time because it goes down according to your whimsical tunes but causes serious damage you could have bargained for ever.Meet ego & attitude the inseparable buddies of anger,who if you keep around inevitably draw anger to you.then what anger does it goes ahead & screws everything you love,it  hurts almost everyone you love,it doesn't care how,who or why.its a parasite that lives off you,that craves & lives off you & in the due process does damage that you pay for.

Anger is a time bomb,you know its going to blow up eventually but you have to control it,because when it goes off it damages everything & everyone you love or care for.It forces relationships to sour,makes people your antagonists,friends go astray,families take backseat,careers go to dumpsters & attitude & ego the greatest assets you once considered of your own become snakes on your own throat,hissing & stinging & spewing venom over you.turns life into a living hell.Anger is just a sweet recipe for disaster,whether you admit it or not,because it is just a demon inside you just waiting to be unleashed,it doesn't see anyone or anything,once the demon is unleashed it does its work while you succumb & repent your actions. 

Why we can't let go of anger,it may be a strong ally,it may be a jewel in our emotions but its just poison,smoking & drinking may affect us just physically but anger kills us slowly its a slow but potent poison that continues to lure us into its waylaid traps & plethora filled paths.It is just another humane hell created by the craftiness of our failed attempt to throw it away.It can't be done away with but it can be tried to be avoided,because it is just a wreck that is just waiting & watching in the wings to spring upon & cause sufferings.










Its foolish to think that anger is a tool to get back at those who made you feel bad or angry,you may victimize them in your brief or prolonged bout of anger but it gets to you in the long run.there comes a time,when people begin to avoid you,they have no choice,you become ignored,you become a outcast in the very circle you created or were a part of,you start losing friends,you despise people,your relationships go astray,lives turn chaotic & melodramatic,even the tiny things in life look like titans.So take a breath,let anger take the backseat instead of you,try to control your anger,anger management sucks but is fruitful & helpful for you.
Because you can live happily if you do away with your anger,we know that's neither possible nor easy but it helps,really helps in every goddamn way.Stop kissing anger's ass & start kissing Life,not in the ass silly but in its face.


And remember Dr Banner/Hulk's words,"You won't like me,when I am angry."
Choose to be Bruce Banner,the raw power of The Hulk thrills but it also kills.

Love - A rendezvous view

Love... Oh Love,yeah love,no love,just love,again love & only love,gimme a break love,spare me love,love love love oh baby love,ready for love,lets roll.

What is love,what exactly it is,what's so important about it,those who know don't know how to tell & those who don't know,can't perceive it.

Is it that simple,do the words make themselves clear enough.No ways love is simple,it always tends to get complicated,most of us center love around the candyfloss romantic capers we see.Some,well girls mostly refer to the handbook of mills & boon or Nicholas Sparks pen(Of the A walk to remember & the notebook fame) & there's always Titanic to inspire them.Boys,they will be boys,always trying to set a trend for others to see,who gives a damn about emotions but give or take sometime they run around the girl without any complaints.

Is Love just a few ml of hormones or endless words or 2 hours of cinematic experience,i am getting jumbled up guys,see that's the problem with love,girls always excel in this subject,no proof but try to believe me but when it comes to us poor chaps,we fail to express it,however hard we try,we always lose sorely to girls.

Love is something that's out of this world,the magic of that smile,those long nights spent on the phone,the long rides & long drives, meeting under strangest of circumstances,going all the way to see just a smile on the faces of each other,searching the same person in a crowd full of strangers,that reassuring smile,those irritating habits,that first kiss & walking hand in hand,for those who hated rain it also becomes a soothing companion,sweet becomes chweet,oh becomes awww,innumerable nicknames spring out,we feel like a child again,innocence blooms again,the world revolves in slow motion as the evens unfold,we become calmer,wiser & dumber too.

For some who believed love exists on celluloid or scented cards,it becomes a phenomenon,because weirder things unfold as time goes by & its funnier because sometimes reality is much complex than fiction.Those who never wrote become poets,those who were wild become responsible, etiquette long gone shows up at the doorsteps again,grown ups become children,time slows down,the world seems oblivious & for some strange reason we search & research ourselves due to the sudden surge of emotions,girls try to search their father in him & boys try to find their mother in her.
Some say people change when they fall in love but in reality they become more of themselves when they fall in love,they don't change they become themselves.

Love is much more than just an emotion,it can't be bargained,can't be obtained,can't be bought & can't be taken,its a force of nature it can only be bartered,there's a famous song in a Hindi movie which is,'pyaar do pyaar lo',which means give love & take love & in my view there's nothing so called as one sided love its just a collision course set for gloom & hatred,its just another name for infatuation,so don't speed away on a gone trail,learn to love life & in some mysterious ways it will love you back & teach you how to love or more importantly will make you fall,fall in love.Those lucky ones who are in love know & those who haven't fallen will know,it works its way in ways you never imagine.Lives alter & prosper,despair goes out of the window.Life becomes beautiful.

P.s. Fall in Love.

HINDU MYTHOLOGY & GREEK MYTHOLOGY- A CREATIVE COMPARISON

Two of the World's most famous & oldest Mythologies & Cultures are the Hindu & Greek Mythologies & Cultures.They are the most adored & discussed,there were other prominent cultures & mythologies like the Roman,Egyptian,Norse & Of course the biggest religions in today's date the Christian & Islam,although it was the later part of the time when Jesus Christ & Prophet Muhammad dawned but the earliest mythologies were the Hindu & Greek.

Both the mythologies date back as old as time itself,we all know the mythologies,we know the epics like Ramayana,Mahabharata,we know the Avatars of Gods like the Dasavataras & their deeds as well as the The Iliad & Odyssey,labors of Hercules,Jason & the Argonauts,Perseus & Medusa,Theseus &  Minotaur & others.

What is intersting among both the mythologies is that there are a lot of resemblances not just any comparison but there are versatile similarities among the two mythologies if we see.So lets ascend higher to the Gods & see the comparison up close.

                                                                 

                                                     THE BIG THREE

In both the mythologies there are The Big Three Gods who are above all the other Gods,both in terms of worship & Power.They were the three most powerful Gods who were worshipped,feared & obeyed by every other Gods & mortals alike.They were the rulers of the very world & the universe,they watched upon mankind & did as they pleased with the mortals & immortals alike.

   

The comparison isn't the same when it comes to the individual Gods among the big three because the big three in Greek are brothers who overthrew their father Kronos to become Gods,Zeus created Man & was the God of Thunder & Lightning,Poseidon was the God of the seas & Hades was tricked by his brothers to rule in the Underworld.In Hindu the big three are not related they are divine beings with Brahma being the Creator of the world & mankind, Vishnu being the Preserver who watches over everyone & Shiva or Maheswar being the Destroyer who keeps the balance between the good & evil.

                                           
                                THE COUNCIL OF GODS

The Council of Gods atop Mount Olympus

There is a council of Gods in both the mythologies,both of them comprising of a bevy of Gods at their council.The council of Gods in Greek is atop the fictional Mount Olympus & in Hindu it is atop the fictional Mount Meru.Both th mythologies see the Gods having a council atop a sacred mountain where they held their divine council & discussed about their duties & mankind's welfare.

Indralok atop Mount Meru    

                       
                      GODS/DEVAS   VS  TITANS/ASURAS

 There is always a clash between good & evil & good always wins but evil never dies it comes back in many forms retaining its aura over & over again.In Hindu mythology the Devas were the Good side & the Asuras were the Evil side who were always at war,similarly in Greek mythology the Gods were the Good side & the Titans were on the Evil side & the wars always went on.The Gods always managed to defeat the Titans & the Devas aways defeated the Asuras.The abode of the Gods of Greek was Mount Olympus & abode of the Titans was Mount Tartarus deep below underworld where they were imprisoned by the Gods,the abode of the Devas was Devalok atop mount Meru & the Asuras lived in patal lok which was below the Earth.

Gods Fighting the Titans

Devas fighting the Asuras

Hindu Mythical Creatures

In these great wars many mythical creatures were also involved,some fought on the side of Devas & some fought on the sides of the Asuras,the creatures like Jatayu,Airavat,Nandi,Vrungi,Jambhaban fought on the side of the Gods,similarly creatures like the Pegasus,Satyrs,Centaurs also fought on the side of Gods against the Titans.Creatures like Daityas,Pisachas fought on side of the Asuras & creatures like Minotaurs,Laistrygonians,Cyclops,Medusa,Kraken fought on the side of Titans.

Greek Mythical Creatures

                              AVATARS & DEMIGODS

AVATARS OF HINDU MYTHOS

Avatars were reincarnations of Devas in the Hindu mythology,Gods taking birth in mortal form to live among the mortals & fight & see the welfare of the mankind.In Greek mythology this was the duty of the Demigods who were the offspring of a God with a mortal,sometimes out of a relationship or out of  force,the demigods in the greek mythology were the greatest heroes of the mankind,they were also worshipped by people for their deeds just like the avatars of Devas.
         

DEMIGODS OF GREEK MYTHOS

                                                                   
                               GODS & DEVAS-Similarities

• The Gods of Greek used to drink Nectar& Ambrosia to revitalize & energize themselves similarly the Devas used to drink Somras to revitalize & energize themselves.
• Indra is the God Of Lightning & Thunder of Hindu Mythology & Zeus  is the God Of Lightning & Thunder of Greek Mythology.
• Varun is the God Of Sea of Hindu Mythology & Poseidon  is the God Of Sea of Greek Mythology.
• Yama is the God Of Underworld in Hindu Mythology & Hades is the God of the underworld in Greek Mythology.
• Saraswati is the Goddesses Of Wisdom in Hindu Mythology & Athena is the Goddess of Wisdom in Greek Mythology.
• Biswakarma is the God Of Forges in Hindu Mythology & Hephaestus is the god of forges in Greek Mythology.
• Narada is the Messenger of Gods in Hindu Mythology & Hermes is the messenger God in Greek Mythology.
• Rati is the Goddess of Love in Hindu Mythology & Aphrodite is the Goddess of love in Greek Mythology. 
• Greek Gods had Naiads,Dryads & satyrs for entertainment & Hindu Devas had Apsaras & Gandharvas for entertainment.